I haven't been posting much lately because I have been literally at a loss for words. It's funny, but I'm not even sure who reads my blog other than my dear blogging friends who consistently leave comments. A blog like this, devoted mainly to artwork that I, and others, create, doesn't quite seem like the appropriate place to pour out problems and feelings, but I'm going to because it is, after all, my blog.
I'm in the middle of a very difficult time and my body is now showing evidence of the stress I've been under, with stomach problems, constant anxiety and even some mini panic attacks. Maybe you've gone through something like this, and if you have any advice, I'd appreciate it.
My older sister is currently suffering from mild dementia due to some small strokes she had in the past few years. Added to that is the fact that she can barely walk, has severe diabetes, has trouble reasoning and making decisions and has had several falls. She lived alone up until 6 months ago, but has had many trips to the hospital, rehab and even a short stay in an assisted living facility. She is now in Rehab.
I, along with one other family member, am her health care proxy and primary support. The problem is that, despite her dementia, she is totally clear about her wish to return home and voices it constantly and angrily. The struggle over this has shaken me badly and, after many meetings and consultations with professional social workers and care givers, we've reached a point where she will have to go to a long term care facility (nursing home), probably this week or next. She is very confused and angry, verbally abusive and depressed. I'm only hoping that her transition goes smoothly and that she will find some peace in her new home.
My sister and I in better times.
I care about my sister and only want the best for her, but have to care for myself also. I've been throwing myself into activities that soothe me, like stitching and collaging, and also meet with my stitching group on Thursday mornings and a class on Thursday nights. I'm hoping to get my blog back on track in the near future. I may remove this post at some time, but felt the need to share what my sister and I are going through right now.
Hope everyone has a good week.